fun drinking game: take a shot of water every couple hours to make sure you’re healthy and hydrated
i admit there’s a fine line between feeling as if someone is trying to control you & allowing for someone to make their own mistakes. they say people learn best from their own mistakes. but is it selfish to try & stop someone when they’re so clearly falling into a trap? yes. it is. because people honestly can only learn from making their own mistakes.
i admit there’s a fine line between being quick to judge someone & having been hurt enough times to know when something is not right. it’s about trusting your gut feeling when your instincts tell you that someone isn’t being genuine. but none of that matters because people honestly can only learn from making their own mistakes.
i can list off for days how that person has fucked his “best friends” over, been sleezy, cheated, stolen money, gone home with anything with legs, been racist, homophobic, spoken badly of his own brother, has selfishly chosen themselves over their “homies”, but when that person can sweet talk their way out of anything & you fall for it, there’s nothing that can be done.
his number one excuse every single time is that “i would never say that”, but what you say & what you do makes a huge ass difference. if you aren’t the person you think you are when you drink, that’s a problem. if every single one of your friends holds you at a distance, that’s a problem. you can continue living your life for you, but there comes a day when you will look back & wonder why everyone is still cool with one another, but you’re no longer being invited to hang out with them.
there’s a difference between being judgmental & trusting your instincts. there’s a difference between being naive & trusting your instincts.
at the end of the day, no one has the ability to make your choices for you other than yourself. & at the end of the day, your actions speak louder than your words. your life experiences shape you & help you to grow, but there are some things that can be avoided. regardless, no one has the right to tell you what to do or how to feel, they can only give you advice with your best intentions in mind. it’s your choice to believe that it’s truly with your best intentions in mind & not me saying it with any kind of ulterior motive. but if you truly believe at the end of the day that this is what’s best for you, then you have that right to do it for yourself. i can’t support what i don’t believe in, especially after all the terrible things i have heard, seen all the ways that he has screwed over his best friends, & all the hurt that he has inflicted on me (& then woken up & denied because he blacked out the night before). a sweet talker is a sweet talker & the day you realize it will be the worst day not only for you but for me, too, believe it or not.
actions speak louder than words, so prove me wrong. but until then, i will never believe in you. & i will never ever waste another minute of my time on you, especially after all of the chances i have already given to you. i’m sorry that i didn’t fall for your sweet talking just as all the other girls in the past did. i’m sorry you couldn’t convince me to drive you to that girl’s house that night, but i couldn’t bear the thought of you hurting that poor girl even though i didn’t even know her. because everything you confessed to me about her in your drunken stupor showed me your true colors & i would never want to put anyone through that no matter how dumb & easy that you thought they were.
i’m sorry that you’re the one falling for all the sleezy sweet talking now. if there comes a day that you get hurt, i won’t be the person who tells you “i told you so”, but i will be the person who loves you just as i always have & takes care of you. i am not the enemy & i never have been. i promise you that. it’s up to you to accept that & until you do, there will never be a relationship as strong as i always believed there was between us again.